im.scared*im.so.alone*
::(lost alone without light or grace, her every tear delivers a stain.)::
her feelings she hides
her dreams she can't find
she's losing her mind
she's fallen behind
she can't find her place
she's losing her faith
she's fallen from grace
she's all over the place
Name:Angel
Age:13
Skool:CHIJ TP SEC
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I made mistakes before but I know that I'm not perfect.It's okay cause who could ever be.And I know,as long as I give my best.And outlast all the rest.Nobody can ever be me.So I wait,hoping,that the day would come and be.The day when I finally can be me.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
Gotta keep praying the day will come.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
Not just for me but for everyone.
Wishes don't come true.I've learnt that throughout my life.Somehow it's always filled with death.You can't take another life.Give me some time to heal but no,you don't.Everything wrong is real.Don't leave me ,just don't.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
Gotta keep praying the day won't come.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
A life is still a life to everyone.
Can't imagine my life without you.Don't know what I can do.To make you live another day.Without pain.It's like another case of dejavu.I've lived these moments before.It's funny how,when you know you're doomed,the world still goes round.Nothing's the same.Everything's changed.Don't leave me all alone.You're the only person who understands me.I can't lose you.Not yet.It's too early for me.I can't handle it you see.Don't leave me.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
Gotta keep praying that you won't die.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
At night,alone,I cry.
It's funny how when I heard the news,I just could not believe it.Doctors say u got a few weeks to live.That you'd never see you're birthday.I took it all in but could not comprehand.I guess I was in shock.You're the only one who understands.Help me understand why you're leaving me.You've only got a couple of weeks to live.Help me understand.It's too cruel yet,my wounds have yet to heal,help me feel.My whole world's gone.I walk alone.No one understands no more.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
Gotta keep praying that a miracle will come.
Gotta keep hoping.
Gotta keep wishing.
At night,alone,I cry.
To my grandmother,Nanan.Only a few weeks left to live.Don't leave me.
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`5:33 PM
Am I invisible? Cuz if I am, somebody 4got to mention it to me.Ppl talk about me in front of me and when I hear some of the things they say, I wish I really was invisible.My frenz tell me to leave it alone but I can't.I hardly have frenz in my class,my parents are constantly on my back and sometimes sometimes I wish I can scream out.Don't they noe I'm doing wat I can.I can't change who I am.But everyone x me frenz want me to.What the hell is wrong wif me? All I noe is that I'm not like anyone else.I'm different.I've been different since I can remember."People fear what they don't understand." I know that.I breathe that. I live that. People don't understand me I guess.What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.I'm stronger now than I've ever been.
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`3:41 PM
A world without light
is the world that I live in
The stars are my guide
reminding me why I live
I walk only at night
so no one can see me
Cause they hate me for who I am
People look at me
and don't give a second glance.
People in this world
don't give me a second chance.
Do they see who I really am?
Sometimes I wish
that my life would get better.
Sometimes I wish
that I would just die.
Nobody wants to know me.
Nobody understands
how lonely I feel.
They hate me for who I am.
I had to beg for a group to take me in for Lit.I hardly have any frenz in this new class and most of the ppl just "use" me.If there's no table and I got a table they pretend to b my frenz and sit wif me.At the Drink stall queue they ask me "Sherry can u help us buy?".I'm sick of it.I never let the real me out.Never.I feel as if I'm losing all my old frenz especially those closest to me.They hang wif their new frenz and I obviously don't have any.They think my life is so close to perfect.It isn't.It's far from it.I've got my own problems.Problems that nobody knows about.I can never be who I want to be cause it's not who my parents want me to be,what my "frenz" want me to be.I can never live up to expectations,not even my own.So why the hell do I wake up every morning? I could have died when I born but I didn't.I could have died in an accident 3 yrs ago but I didn't.In short,I could have died many times but I didn't.I'm a fighter.And always will be.My heart is ice and I'm a bitch.Accept it.
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`5:26 PM
Life sux!I hardly have any frenz in this new class n those who r my frenz prob befriended me out of sympathy.Seriously.I wish I was back in P6 Hibiscus.Back then everything made sense.I had frenz n belonged in a gang.I was not doing badly in school like I am now.I was one of teachers pet n a pupil manager n I never obeyed the rules.I prob made the devil look like an angel.That's why I'm called Sherz(thanks to Dagger) or Angel (from hell that is) or the ever popular Dark Angel or D.A for short...............
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`6:17 PM
I juz finished half of the homework(in other wds the wk that is due tmr) and have yet to start on geog.Plus the first 2 periods are maths so........Oh yeah n I have yet to start on the art homework.........Sigh.......Can tmr never come? Or can today last forever.......
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`12:19 PM
I seriously wish I didn't wake up in the morning today. First I got scolded by my Enrichment Programme teacher cuz my groups kangkong was dead and there no way we could sell it and we harvested our plot on wednesday so they would obviously be dead by now.Then, my form teacher came in scolding us all saying that we told the teacher that the reason for our dead kangkong was her.She started saying crap and finally ordered us to go down for recess but she said when she came up later,the kangkong had to be gone so a couple of us stayed behind to try to figure out what to do with the kangkong and prefects came in saying that we had to go down and all that crap.Then a certain girl who shall remain nameless said we were allowed to stay in class to drink cuz she n another girl had bought drinks n were drinking it in class.Then my teacher came up and screamed at us to go down.Later on we had two periods with her.Guess what happened.We had another BIG scolding from her and tons of homework.This was definately one of the worst days of my life.Hopefully I'll wake up and realise that this was all an extremely bad dream but then again I hope I'll wake up and realise that my LIFE so far had been a bad dream and so far it has yet to happen.Sigh.Hopefully it will.......
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`4:05 PM
Hey guyz wassup?! I'm in school right now supposedly looking for recipes.And at the same time surfing the net.I take Home Ec. Not D & T. Anywayz I better blaze before my teacher sees this.Late.
Angeltriedtotake herlife_____`8:00 AM